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| Wow, its been about 5 months since I last updated. You thought it was the last of me. Now that i'm done with my first year of college, lets reflect. I remember complaining ALOT about my roommate (or should i say former roommate), especially here on xanga. But as the year progressed, i learned to live with her. I know what her habits are. And the think the biggest problem was me worrying about what she thought. Sure i complained how she wouldn't let boys sleep over, but I did agree to it. Well, that was to respect her of course. But, it ended up me sleeping over at mike's every weekend, and I was afraid she thought i was a slut. But as time passed by, i learned not to care of what she thinks. Like, i also was afraid to go out with out her. I mean, for some reason i always felt obligated to invite her to wherever i was going. Like if i was going to go out with friends, i felt the need to ask her to join us. I knew she didn't like to party or to drink, so i didnt invite her when i was doing those sort of things. Sometimes i even lied about what i was doing so i didn't have to invite her along. Now i realize that its stupid. Just becuase I'm her roommate and she is not outgoing doesn't mean i'm her source of entertainment. I can tell that she wants to make friends and stuff, but she's the type of person who doesn't go out. She does stay in ALOT. So, i learned not to care about her. I mean, i do care about her, she is my friend, but you know what i mean. I do like her, and i'm friends with her. But i can't live with her. Every girl on my floor agrees with me. They all admit that they too cannot live with her. I think the biggest reason is how COLD she likes it in the room. I still say she's a polar bear, and everyone on my floor can't tolerate the coldness of our room. They even feel bad for her future roommate. Me, i'm just glad i'm gonna room with someone who likes the same room temperature as me. Overall, i think i got lucky, because i got a roommate that was tolerable.
As for academics, i did really well this semester. I got a B+ in the weed out class for math majors. So i'm really happy about that. And the rest were A's, so i raised my GPA. I also learned never to take a hard class (CHEM) unless i really need it. I think i studied hard, and i'm proud of myself.
I was debating if i should delete this xanga, since i hardly use it. But i promised myself that i wouldn't be like everyone else who gives up their xanga for something like myspace (which by the way i deleted). But then right before i began writing this entry, i saw the calendar thingy on the side. I remembered, i'm not a person who deletes entries, ever. And i enjoy going back to old entries and remincising. So, i won't delete it. I'll try to update whenever i can. 
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| So Christmas is over. I love Christmas. Its the one time of the year you can totally splurge your money and not feel guilty because its not for yourself. I love it!! Too bad I'm jobless right now, or else I'd have more fun! Hehe! Not trying to be cocky or anything, but I think the most thoughtful thing i did this christmas was for my roommate. She really wanted Final Fantasy VIII for the orginal PS. But since the game is kinda old, she couldn't find it anywhere. The only place she found it was online at walmart.com. The problem is, her dad is against video games and her mom is against buying stuff online. But she really wanted the game. You're probably wondering how she could play it if her dad is against video games, well its like this. Her brother saved up for a Playstation, so he was allowed to buy it. So anyways, while i was packing for christmas break, she game me a christmas present. I didn't open it till christmas, but I felt bad cuz i didn't get her anything. The thought occurred to me a few days beforehand. But I didn't start my christmas shopping at all. And i told her that. I felt bad for not getting her anything, but i really appreciated her gift. So anyways, that weekend while i was at home, i was looking online. And just for kicks i looked at walmart.com at FF VIII. I thought, its not that expensive, why don't i order it online and ship it directly to her house. I thought, if i buy it now and give it to her when we get back to school, its not going to do her any good. she won't be able to play it. So I had to give it to her during break so she could enjoy it. So thats what i did, i ordered it online and had it shipped to her house. It made me feel good inside.
Ok, now for the most thoughtful present of the YEAR! My cousin Darvin was telling us the story of his mom's yearbook. Back in the day, his mom, my tita betty, let a friend borrow her yearbook. She was upset cuz her friend never returned it. So she was really upset cuz she didn't have the yearbook from her graduating class. We can understand, i'd be pissed to if i lost my yearbook from my graduating year. So this is what Darvin did. He called the school where his mom went, this was in the philippines by the way. He asked them if they still had any copies of the yearbook for his mom's graduating class. And they had one copy!! So he asked if he could by it, no matter what the cost was. So they had it shipped to here all they way from the Philippines! So he gave it to his mom for christmas. I remember, just when he was about to give it her, he asked if anyone had a camera just to see her reaction. According to Darvin, there were tears coming from Tita Betty's eyes. Now, I think that was the most thoughtful gift i'd ever seen!! Mad props to Darvin.
Now some people just don't understand the meaning of Christmas. It doesn't how expensive or how cheap a gift is, how big or how small the gift is, its the thought that went behind the gift. Like I gave my mom glass flowers because I remember her telling me that she wanted them. I knew that she wanted the big one to put in our house. But me, being poor/jobless right now, I gave the smaller one. She didn't care how small it was, she appreciated it anyway because she knew I put some thought behind the gift. Now some people, not trying to mention any names PATRICK (my brother), just don't understand that. I don't mean to rat him out, actually, I'm not gonna be blundt about it. I'M PURPOSELY RATTING OUT MY HALF BROTHER!!! It seems like every year he gives my parents recycled gifts. Like last year he gave my dad what looked like an old christmas nightlight and Noel wine glasses. It was pretty obvious that the wine glasses were old. They were dusty for heaven's sake! I'm not saying i'm totally against recycled gifts. I mean, if there's something you recieved, and you don't want it, but you think someone else might like it, thats fair game. Like i said, its the THOUGHT that counts. Now this christmas. You know what he gave my dad? Well, he acted all proud saying that his gift came from Italy. You know what it was? Christmas Pasta! Like a bag of pasta, and the pasta is in the shape of christmas objects. You know, like santa clause, or candy canes. WTF? First of all, my parents don't even cook pasta! And he thinks he's so cool cuz its from Italy. There are tons of cheap, but cute souveniers you can buy that are more thoughtful than that. You know what i mean. Keychains, refridgerator magnets, whatever. Like, my mom's been to rome before. And she said that there's alot you can buy for so little. Like i said, it doesn't matter how much something costs, as long as you put some thought behind the gift.
So when it comes to thoughtfulness, the more important a person means to you, the more thought you try to put into their gift. Am I right? Like I really wanted to please my parents with my christmas gift because I love the so much. They're my parents, what can I say. And of course, I spent a long time on Mike's gift. Like he's my first serious boyfriend, so I didn't want to mess it up. I went around asking all our friends what to get him. I knew he'd probably like anything he gave me, but I still wanted to put some thought into his gift. And vice versa. I don't care if my parents, my relatives, my friends, my boyfriend get me anything cheap or expensive. I know they all put thought into their gifts. Like my godmother, she gave me some sweatpants and matching jacket thingy because she knew that was something I could wear around in my dorm. Now i think thats thoughtful. That something I actually wanted to look for. Not to be mean, but sometimes the clothes she gets me aren't always my style. But see, she put thought into my gift. Now when it comes to my half brother patrick, it seems like doesn't put any thought into his gifts. Like, when my mom goes shopping for them, she really really wants to please them. She bought Patrick some nice pajamas and she gave his wife a purse that she would probably use. But patrick, it doesn't seem like he cares that much. The christmas pasta he gave my parents, first of all it was for both my parents. You know, a combined gift. I mean, if u think about it, its kinda thoughtful...maybe....for my mom. I mean, moms usually like to cook and stuff. And its christmas pasta, its goes along with the holiday, i guess. But the thing is, he should be thinking about OUR dad. My mom is not his mom. But we have the same dad. He should be thinking about some thine OUR DAD would like. What the hell is dad going to do with christmas pasta. Eat it I guess, but still. If someone is important to you, you put extra thought into their gift. I kinda feel bad for my dad now. It seems like my brother doesn't care about him. I'm starting to feel like he's selfish. And its hurting me to see the way he treats my dad. I'm actually tearing up as I'm writing this. Its not even me he's hurting.
So you guys, I have a question to ask. Am I right for feeling this way? Please comment and let me know!
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| Got my schedule all figured out. I'm not all creative and placed a nice schedule here on my xanga. Instead i'll redirect you with this link: Click Here
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| Time for a college update. I just read my last entry. I
still remember move in day like it was yesterday. I can't believe i've been
here for almost 3 months. Anyways....i'd hate to complain, but when it comes to
the roommate, i spoke too soon.
She's nice and all. We get along, and we do have a lot in common. That is, a
lot of LITTLE things. Sure we're both indecisive and we both don't watch much
tv, but we don't really share the same interests. First of all she's an english
major, and i'm a math major. 2 opposite ends of the spectrum. But thats not
really the point. There's other things. She's into animation, and i'm into
music. I dunno. But really, there's a lot of things that i don't like about
her. I know i can't find the perfect roomate, but it could be better (luckily
its not worse)
Speaking of worse. You know how every girl fears getting the "party
girl" as a roommate. You know the girl who gets wasted every night and
brings home guys she just met. My friend jessica has a roomie like that. But
me, I got the EXACT OPPOSITE!
It all started when me and mike started dating. Thats a whole different story
in itself. But it ended with me getting wasted and mike sleeping over in my
room. (yea, i'm a slut). Well, in the morning we told the roommate that we wouldn't
sleepover on school nights and stuff. The roommate told me that we needed to
discuss our guest policy. Which i totally understand. you know, letting each
other know who's coming over and stuff. Later that day as we were getting ready
in the bathroom, she tells me "You know, i'm going to have to ask my
parents about this." And your probably thinking what i was thinking:
WTF!!! So later i tell her, if it bothers you, then i wont have him sleep over.
And later she tells me, ok, lets just agree that we're not going to have boys
sleep over at all. so i agreed. I don't want her to feel uncomfortable, cuz i'm
an awesome roommate like that. But what sucks was a week later when charles
asked me if he could crash here for fact. But she wouldn't let him. she just
said, "can't he stay with someone else?" its different with charles.
He's a really really good friend that i've known for years. And he still
couldn't sleep over.
So yea, my roommate's like my mother. I can't have boys sleep over, and i have
to tell her where i'm going if i'm going out. She's ultra conservative. its
cool that she doesn't drink and stuff, but she won't even go to a party if she
knows there's gonna be alcohol there. Plus, she doesn't have a myspace or a
facebook because her parent's don't let her get one. Come on, its not like
they're going to find out. And if she didn't really want one, she could just
say she's not into that stuff. Don't say its because of your parents. Speaking
of her parents. My roommate's parents think i'm a slut. Here's the logic to
that. Knowing what i told u from the previous paragraph, she tells her parents
everything. Yes, she's a college student living on her own, and she asks her
parents if her roommate's boyfriend can sleep over. Since mike can't sleep over
here, i have no choice but to sleep over at his place. And since my roommate's
like my mom, i have tell her where i'm going. So i kinda have to tell her that
i'm crashing at mike's. And knowing her, she's probably telling her parents. So
therefore, her parents think i'm a slut.
I think the whole mike thing is a big reason why i don't like living with her.
I never thought it would be, but it is. I technically agreed to it. i hate to
mention the fact when we agreed that no boys can sleep over, she did ask me if
that was unfair to me. And i said no. But how was i supposed to know. Plus i
want to respect the fact that she doesn't want boys sleeping over. There's
other things about her. ROOM TEMPERATURE!! I puposely chose this dorm because
it has air conditioning. But she NEVER turns it off. It gets really cold in
here. you'll see me, wearing a hoodie in the middle of august while she's
wearing a tank top to sleep. I know its easier for me to put on a hoodie, but
still. ITS FREEZING!!! And when i found out how to turn of the the a/c, she was
kinda pissed. She told me, "lets pretend like we didn't find out."
she's a frickin polar bear. Now that its colder out, she still like leaving the
window open. Just 2 days ago, i told her that it was going to be 60 out! She
got pissed. She's like "i wanna wear 3/4 sleeve shirts." I told her,
"do you not like wearing short sleeves." And she said, "i wear
short sleeves to much cuz i'm always hot." What kinda response is that???
One time earlier this year when it the a/c was still working, i saw her wearing
a hoodie. I told her, its cold, don't u wanna turn off the a/c. And she says
"No. The moment we turn it off, its gonna be 80 out." OMG! Its not
like we can't turn it back on.
One other thing i wish is to have our beds bunked. For those of u who didnt'
know U of I dorms are TINY!!! They are like cubicles compared to other schools.
When i talked to her this summer i told her that i wanted our beds bunked so we
could have more space. And she said she rather have them separated. She said
she didn't want to sleep above the ground. So i offered to take the top bunk.
And she said: "well, the top person won't get enough air."!!!! WHAT
KIND OF EXCUSE IS THAT!!??!? I told her we have air conditioning, so it
shouldn't be a probably. But she still said no. she said she didn't care how
the beds were, as long as they weren't bunked. Now that i'm living with her, i
can tell that she loves having her own side of the room. Yea, she's very PICKY
about having her own side of the room. Like before fact, i told her that maybe
2 or 3 of my friends were staying with us. And she asked, "where are we
gonna put them. They're gonna gave a suitcase and purse. Where are we gonna put
them and their stuff?" And it gets better. She says "i don't wanna
step on them when i wake up." Well first of all, she sleep late, so we'd
wake up before her. Second, we can have 2 people in my bed and 1 or 2 on the
floor. 3rd, suitcases don't take up that much room, especially if they're only
gonna be here for the weekend. I could even put it in my closet. And purses are
tiny! She acts if its gonna take up a lot of room. She probably doesn't want
anything on her side of the room. Its my room too!!! I don't want two parts of
the room. Its supposed to be OUR room!
Not to mention she's just weird. Even this summer, alona was afriad she'd get
scared and weirded out by me the first time she talked to me on the fone. But
it turns out she's weirder than me. Do you like the movie Finding Nemo? Who
doesnt? Well my roommate doesnt!! She says the animation sucks. "If i can
draw better than the movie, then it sucks." First of all, she thinks she
can draw better than that. First of all its 3D computer animation!! She thinks
she can draw better than that?!?!? Second, just because the animation sucks, doesn't
mean the story line sucks too. She just has weird taste. She's against
nickelodeon. I dont' why, but she is. She hate the rugrats cuz the animation
sucks. Its weird. She like drawing anime, but she doesn't watch it. Its kinda
weird.
In addition, i think she's paranoid. it pisses me off when she says, "we
really need to get to bed earlier." What the hell does she mean by we?
Most of the time, i go to bed before her. She take so frickin long in the
shower. She showers for more than a hour. I'll get back to the room after
studying, and she already left to take her shower. I get ready for bed and
stuff, and i still go to bed before her. And, when i go out on weekends. I'll
get back to the room like 4 or 5 in the morning. She didn't even go out or anything,
and she's STILL awake. Well, she's not in the room, but i can tell that she's
taking a shower. What is she doing alone in our room? I wonder. She takes a
shower, right before she goes to bed. Its sad when she was taking a shower 5:30
in the morning and some told her, "wow, you're up pretty early." and
she tell her that she's going to bed. So anyways, i hate it when se says WE
need to get to bed early. or WE need to start our homework earlier so we can
get to bed earlier. Well i actually start my hw early unlike her. She's start
her hw at 11 or something. I actually do my hw unlike her. She only does
enought to get by. She like never does hw. Mike asked her one time if she does
hw, and she said she has to do her stats, sometimes Spanish, and that’s about it.
Maybe I’m just jealous of her. I guess she’s just one of those people who’s
just naturally smart and doesn’t have to try. Me, on the other hand, have to
work my ass off to do decently.
I noticed I went off on a tangent with her being paranoid.
The point I was trying to get at was that it seems like she doesn’t want to go
to bed before me. She even told me one time at her house she has this thing
about being the first person to get up in the morning and she has to be the
last person to go to bed. Is she an insomniac or something? Well, definitely,
she probably isn’t getting enough sleep. Well, one time I went to bed really
early cuz I had a head ache and she still stayed up, that’s understandable. But
I noticed sometimes if I get ready for bed a little earlier than usual, she’ll
start getting ready for bed too. Maybe its just coincidence. I dunno. There are
times my friend Jessica comes over late to do hw, and she ends up going to bed
before we do. But for the most part, she never goes to bed before me. But I
also notice, I’ll get back to the room in between classes. I open the door, and
she’s lying on her bed. But I notice as soon as I open the door, she gets up
from her bed. I figure she was taking a nap or something, but she gets up when
I come in. Does she not like taking a nap knowing that I’m awake in the room? I
guess she hates sleeping when I’m awake. Its so weird. For me, when I’m tired
and I need I nap, I take a nap, even if she’s watching tv or something. I don’t
care, as long as I get sleep. I noticed she doesn’t take naps, yet she doesn’t
get a lot of sleep at night. Maybe she sneaks naps in when I’m not in the room.
O shoot. I forgot to mention about her being a leech. Well
its not so much a problem now as it was before. See, she only has like 2
friends on campus. And they’re identical twins who are dorming together! The
funny thing is, the weekend we were on campus, I was hanging out with her and
her friends. But later on, it turns out her friends are workaholics. So I guess
their always busy. Anyways, I guess I have more friends than her and I’m more
outgoing than her. But I always try to be nice and invite her when I’m going
out. Well, if I’m going to party or something, I know she doesn’t want to go if
there’s alcohol. But unfortunately, it came to the point where my friend told
me that she wanted to hang out with me, and not my roommate. She’s my friend
not my roomie’s friend. So we had to tell her we were at a party even tho we
were just chillin at her dorm. I think what really got her to cling to us was
this one Saturday night. We went to party, but left cuz everyone was drunk and
hitting on my friend. So we decided to go to iHop at like 3 in the morning. But
my friend Jessica left her purse in my room. So we went back to get it. And of course
we see the roommate sitting in the room. And of course we have to invite her.
Well, I’ll admit that we insisted on her coming, but that was the right thing
to do. I think that 3 am trip to ihop got her to cling to us.
Ok, I think I’ve done enough complaining. This seems
to long already. I think that’s pretty much it. It would be scary if there were
more, which there might be, but I can’t think anymore. So how are things now?
Well, I’m good now. I used to complain all the time to everyone I saw. I felt
bad because I know it can be so much worse. At least I get along with her. but
now I’m dealing with it. Just dealing with it makes me feel a lot better. I’ve
come to the point where I just don’t care what she thinks anymore. I don’t
worry about inviting her to come along anymore. And I’m not afraid of what she
thinks when I sleep over at mike’s. I like never sleep in my own room on
weekends anymore. It would be so much easier if me and mike were just chillin
the whole day in my room and he could just stay there. But no, we have to go
back to his room at night. I don’t care if she thinks I’m slut or whatever. It
college, everyone does it. I just don’t care about her anymore, and apparently,
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| Yes, I am updating from Urbana!! I still can't believe I'm here. It feels like just yesterday I was applying to this school, and now here I am, a student at the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign. This is all i got to say "I love collge, but I hate school." I should of tried this whole college thing a long time ago...but of course i couldn't. I love the freedom. My parents are super strict. They don't let me out of the house late. I can't leave the house past 8! Its supposedly too late. Even if i'll be home at the same time that i would be if i left the house at 6. For example, its ok to leave the house at 6 and come back at 11. But its not ok to leave the house at 8 and be home at 11. Yea, its messed up. But now at college i can leave my room whenever the hell i want to. I'm so amused when i leave my dorm at 9 or 10. Yea i'm a loser, or maybe i'm just sheltered. I dunno. And the other thing is curfew. Well technically i don't have a curfew. My parents just give me time to go home depending on where i'm going or who i'm with. Now i can come home whenever the hell i want. With the parents, generally they wanted me to be home around 11 or 12 ish. Its awesome how I'm walking home 3 in the morning, something that would NEVER happen at home. Even if i'm just at a friend's dorm room, its awesome coming home past 2 in the morning. Just last night, i had people over till 4 AM. Fun stuff. I love the freedom, but don't worry, I'm not gonna go wild.
School's also making me more social. I'm usually a bad fone friend. Well, i do return people's calls and stuff, but i'm not the one who calls people to hang out. They have to call me cuz i'm too lazy to call people to hang out. Now i'm being more of a good fone friend and I actually call people to chill now. The other funny thing i'm hanging out with people that i haven't seen all summer. Yes, i'm chillin with friends from high school that i already know, but i haven't seen them all summer. I've seen them more this week than i did all summer. Kinda sad eh?
Speaking of social, I've met so many new people. Just a week ago i was at FAR (Florida Avenue Residence) with a group of friends. We were sitting in the lounge playing Uno. Then i hear a guy playing piano. And he's playing all these classical songs that i knew. My friend told me i should go over there by the piano. But we were in the middle of a game of uno, but when we finished i mingled over to piano. Pretty soon there was a group of people standing around the piano. We ended up having a piano jam session. People gathered around the piano and playing piano. I got all their fone numbers so we could do that again. Labor day weekend i need to go home and get music so we can jam again!
And you're probably wondering about the roommate. Yes i do have a random roommate. And guess what. She's AWESOME! Its crazy how much we have in common. First of all, we have the same name. Hahah! Yea she's also a Jennifer. We both don't watch much tv, we both are super indecisive, we're both unathletic...just to mention a few. We get along great. Hopefully this lasts.
Now here comes the school. School sucks monkey ball! All i've been doing this weekend is homework. I have a 2 page essay due tomorrow! Its like the 1st week of school and i already have an essay due. WTF? Not to mention i also had a shitload of reading to do.
Overall, College is freaking Awesome. You should try it!
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